
The Line People
A devotional by Colleen C. Howard
“But everything exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated becomes a light.”—Ephesians 5:13 (NIV)
As I dive deeper into God’s Word, I become acutely aware of His presence, and I can’t imagine starting my day any other way.
Most of what I share with you begins in one of my journals, but the notebooks I use for journaling are hard to find. Each spiral bound page of my journal has faint dots that are almost unnoticeable. I adore the dots on these pages. They are friendly and offer the suggestion of lines without any of the rules. The dots don’t dictate or issue mandates. They never require me to stay between the dots, and they don’t tell me that I’m doing it wrong.
I am not a fan of lined paper because I have difficulty writing within the lines—just ask anyone who has tried to read a note, letter, card or grocery list that I penned. No matter how hard I try, I absolutely cannot corral the movements of my hand and confine my words to fit inside of the lines. This drives me crazy.
True confessions, both my husband and our adult children are blessed with a mysterious ability to write within the lines. Truth be told, they don’t even need lines. They each have handwriting so perfect that it looks like a font from a laptop. I’ve always envied them for this skill. Surely, I must have been absent from school the entire year that handwriting was taught.
My point is this: Envy is a slippery slope. I have spent too much time giving power to the line people. I’ve allowed envy to invade my soul and deposit feelings of incompetence in my heart. For years I’ve let these thoughts annoy me every single time I put pen to paper. I’ve placed so much value on wanting to fit in and be like the line people. I took my eyes off Jesus Christ and focused them on my inadequacies. This became so disturbing to me and I began to believe that it was a personal weakness. Is my inability to stay between the lines really a weakness? Of course not. The true weakness is envy. It became the voice in my head chanting “I’m not good enough” over and over in my mind. I not only allowed envy to become the voice in my head; I handed it a microphone to broadcast its negative message directly to my heart.
One morning as I was writing in my journal, I suddenly became aware of how much I love to doodle, diagram and write my words over these tiny dots. It was as if Jesus took my pen and began writing back to me. He reminded me that envy is a favorite tool of the enemy and showed me that my weakness was envy, not a lack of handwriting skills.
This whole line people thing may sound like a small inconvenience to you, but anything that causes your heart to stray from God’s truth is not insignificant. My freedom from the power of the line people has opened my eyes to other lies that creep over me and try to steal my joy. This awakening has helped me to remember to ask Jesus to guard my heart.
This one tiny area of my life wreaked havoc every time I picked up a pen. It wasn't a small thing to me. I may never know why my handwriting is so weird, but what I do know is that Jesus loves me just as I am and His love brings unspeakable joy to my heart.
Let’s Pray:
Dear Jesus,
Empower me to be bold enough to seek Your wisdom and look closely at the annoyances in my life. Give me courage to dig deep and recognize the things that constantly gnaw at my heart. Help me to recognize what causes me to feel less than or not good enough. Help me to remember Jesus loves me, and how God the Father sings over my soul and calls me His child. The Holy Spirit gives me the power to overcome and believe what He says of me. In His light you will see light. Praise be to God! In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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Song of Reflection #1: “You Say” by Lauren Daigle. Listen to it here.
Song of Reflection #2: “The Truth” by Megan Woods. Listen to it here.
Song of Reflection #3: “I Believe” by Megan Woods. Listen to it here.
Song of Reflection #4: “The Truth About Me” by Mandisa. Listen to it here.
Song of Reflection #5: “His Banner Over Me” by Cheri Keaggy. Listen to it here.
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Author Bio:
Colleen C. Howard is a follower of Jesus Christ, educator and writer. She lives with her husband in the Arizona desert where the sunsets are spectacular, the summers are relentless and the winters are a little slice of Heaven.

Colleen earned her Master’s Degree in Educational Leadership. This degree opened opportunities to write science curriculum, develop district programs, work with Arizona teachers, community leaders, and more. With NASA Grant funding, she was also able to work with teachers all over the country and expand their knowledge of teaching science as a collaborative effort.
Over the last few years God has placed a strong desire in Colleen’s heart to shine a light on God’s presence throughout ordinary days and encourage women in their faith walk with Him. Although some days bring trials and others bring joy, Colleen believes that if you fix your eyes on Jesus then you will see the heart of God.
Colleen’s writing has been published in the following online publications: Living By Design, Her View From Home, Inside Out Worldwide, and in anthologies like From Ruins to Restoration, Mountains Moved: 45 Devotions of Bold Faith, and The Miracle of Prayer. She is a monthly blogger for Dressing in God’s Love.
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Connect with Colleen:
Website: authorcolleenchoward.com










